Life in the way

Work sucks and I want to sleep all the time. Feeling a little depressed and heavy. Gaining weight and don't want to train. I want to go out and trash myself again and again. This is always the time I self impload bc I want to go play. Only two days now bc I didnt want to swim after work bc work now always sucks. Can't wait to get away from corporate america. I can't even plan my workouts 4 days in advance (that sucks for someone like me if you can tell). Hence why I get on stupid 40 hour kicks. I know some people train like this on purpose and I used to but "wimping" out on stuff gets stupid. So insatiable with food all the time too. Oh well

I will be ready to hit it again tomorrow.